the Long Road home

sometimes i wonder if anyone even bothers to read this blog...then a fren like yvonne drops a comment to say, hey, u're bloggin...good to see that...so thanks all my comment droppers and frens who read this stuff...

i had a bit of a week here man..was a taxi driver to quite a few old uncles in their 30s to 40s..even had the dubious honour of bein screwed verbally by not a few...another feather in my cap you must be thinkin..i never thought i would rough it out after my ATEC trial but there i was supportin some officers in their higher level trainin...in the field 24/7 for half a week..

i was made to think of all the various times i went out into the 'field' in the damn national service and all the stress as well as to some extent, pleasant memories i've had..i learnt all the hardest lessons of life out there from bein too sure of myself to the value of standin up for myself when only God is on your side... along with some of the terrible habits that will eventually kill if i continue them...i had my first cigarette out there (and a jolly good stick it felt back then) but i've given that up since..

the point of all this mish-mash bein that i've learnt some nasty lessons out there in the wide open world of the army and done some pretty nasty things totally out of keepin with my character...now i guess i'm on the mend and comin back home to God and sanity..its a Long Road home for mi and i just want to say sorry to those i've hurt durin those dark days...and to those who have hurt mi, i forgive u dudes (but not without consequence man..thats comin ur way)

i've learnt the lessons from this stage of life well enough la...and i will say that i hope never to have to go down such a dark path again or relearn these lessons...lessons such as havin a backbone to stand for what u believe in...thank God i'm on my way back from the edge of the precipice..