Frustration

F***!! i just lost a post i was doin...it was on da service industry in singapore...shappin up to be somethin i realli liked...now its gone with my creative juices...*pause to swear all e vulgarities ever used on mi in e army n which i hav in turn used on those who've known mi in due time n with which i curse e SAF everday*...ok..i'm too tired to rewrite dat post...but here's an address regardin my last post..Yve, sweet lass, dat mention of females who've disappointed mi, hurt mi n pissed mi was nae includin ya...excluded u are from such a condemnation lass...n i WILL keep ya guys in e NWO updated...u are one of e things dat mattered enough to mi to warrant my stoppin long n hard to think before takin e plunge into e waters of da cool dark pond...so to speak..n to Shian..bro, u dinnae hav any idea wat God has in store for ya after e black days spent at e green gate, waitin for it to end...6 hours did Christ spend on e cross; can anyone say they've spent longer than Him, waitin literalli, for e curtain (in e temple) to fall? or longer than my Father waited to turn back His Face to His Son? n Gabriel? i'm callin ya today..we hav to talk before u go to Cambridege...ur decision to leave was a chief catalyst for my own decision though i knew it not at e time

in fact, many things catalysed my decision...i believe that e direction for some things in life is set by many forces...just like e course of history..historical epochs (big word with big purpose) like e outbreak of World War 1 or 2 cannot be reversed or changed...man is too small to do that...historical events like e assasination of Franz Ferdinand or Kennedy may hav been prevented, but e events arisin from them would hav occured nonetheless...one would be naive to think dat World War 1 or e US involvement in Vietnam would go away just by changin these historical events alone...historical direction at least is, usin a word anathema to my college History tutor, S Tay, inevitable...

darn..i overreach myself..dats my philosophy u might say..haiz..i'll try to reconstruct dat lost post (dats a nice one) tmrw when my mind's not doin mental gymnastics all over mi..would hav been real nice to see it published to nite..g'nite all