Packin List

wat should i bring along to Newcastle, Australia man?i hav absoluteli no idea...clothing wise, winterwear, outdoor wear, casual, dress wear, underwear, socks, PT attire n trunks..

then there's electronic equipment..laptop, portable hard disk, digital camera, mayb my handspring(another century i noe) n my mp3 n CD players..i do hope i can get on msn regularli down under..

shoes , sandals, stationery, miscellanous other items...e packin will realli be a headache..at least travellin by SIA allows a baggage allowance of 30 kg so dat helps..my dad will be followin mi for e 1st few days to settle mi in which offers some relief before i'm gonna face it alone..

i think it'll still b e case where i wake up 1 mornin n discovr i'm there in e thick of it n up to ma neck n bareli survivin...one song keeps playin in ma mind these daez...runaway train..runaway train never goin back...fears b4 the Big 1 i guess..like e jitters a horse gets b4 a race prob..not dat i'm a horse or stud mind u...

its times like dis i wonder if i made e rite decision..all e reasons r still fresh in ma mind but i just can't shake off dat "wat if" feelin we all get..alternativ history alwaez creeps in...wat if Singapore had not separated frm Malaysia? wat if Britain had not lost Malaya? wat if i had not failed ma a's once? wat if i'd gone to SAJC to b with 'der family' as i still consider it? too many wat ifs...too littl time n too many memories..

i guess its not just e physical packin we gotta handle when we leav a place or close a chaptr on our lives in order to open a new one..we oso hav to pack away some memories, experiences n unfulfilled hopes or dreams..to b left untouched till our return..then we open them like a time capsule to savour, relish n re-appraise them frm a different light..n with e mellowin dat comes with time..

they r never forgotten though..as Neil Gaiman says in his book American Gods,"things wait here, but they will wait until you return"..till then i'll place these memories n experiences in cryogenic suspended animation..here's to foreign travels n eventual homecomings..Cheers!