Confessions

i need pple less today than 10 years ago-why i hav no idea, but i seem to feel most comfortable alone..

pple hurt mi..i dun like being hurt..ergo i dun really like pple-to heck with the rest of the universe..its just God n mi..like good ol Henry David Thoreau

i dun like free will..its just too much power in the hands of a depraved n wicked humanity..which i already confessed i dun really like-i like directness, clarity n simplicity

i'd like to be loved but am hesitant to show love..for fear of being hurt..which would confirm my hypothesis that i dun like human beings..n sometimes, to confirm a hypothesis is scary..

there was a foolish man who used to believe that everything is mystical n everything had a deep spiritual meaning..he paid greatly for his folly..bad things happen in God's will but often without human reason..because human beings screwed it up in the first place..therefore i shd not like human beings..that fool is me..

serving and loving pple takes its toll on everyone..not least me..many pple i serve in Christ's love i'm not particularly fond of..n if they think that i irritate them and make their lives miserable by constantly challenging them to godliness..well, the feeling is mutual..they irk me n make mi miserable too..which is another reason i dun like human beings..because serving n loving them is so difficult..

these are my confessions..God help mi overcome these flaws