The Heart of Dreaming

my best frens noe how much i love Neil Gaiman's Sandman and other graphic novels as well as stories like American Gods, Wolves-in-the-Walls n Neverwhere...

guess i was 2 tired last nite but when i went to sleep at aroun 330 after e SSA elections n some 'refreshments of an alcoholic nature'..i had an episode dat seemed 2 come directli out of Neil Gaiman's Sandman series..i had a dream dat i've had b4 in e army n in times of great exhaustion n weariness..

well, i dreamt dat i was runnin in e forest again..as a man..then as i ran farther n grew tired, i felt a sudden burst of speed overtake mi..n i started goin faster n harder..when i looked at my hands n feets i saw dat i seemed to be more n more animal-like..until i realised i was no longer human but wolf..runnin thru glen, dale n forest..n i was without fear..a sleek hunter in e nite..e strange tot came to mind as i awoke with a jolt..i am wolf n they are sheep..then e sure thrill of e hunt took mi as i awoke in cold sweat..disturbin dream..

i gather dat i must hav been real tired out b4..i alwaez wake with a certain drive n sense of purpose (terrible purpose) after dis dream..dreams tell us wat we refuse to face when awake n reveal our greatest hopes n fears to ourselves..its been said..they are a reflection of ourselves n all dat is brightest/darkest in us..

i tot of my dream b4..n feel dat though stupid n somewat scary, it reveals something bout myself..dat mayb wat i crave most in life is respect...not so much so dat pple will giv mi glory or anythin..dats definitely not mi..but i want my place in e sun..its just dat too many pple hav despised mi n scorned mi in life..i wanted to tell many pple in life n back home dat i'm a human bein with feelins too..but i realised dat human nature is such dat pple dun considr each othr unless some forcefulness is shown on an individual's part..

well, Christ's message 2 do 2 others wat we want them 2 do to us shd be kept by Christians but i noe it won't be kept by e world..so how? i do my part lor..n dun bother bout e rest..i seek to do as i would like 2 be treated..n where man tries to do otherwise to mi..well mayb e time to show some teeth has arrived..

strange wat a dream can provoke us to think about huh? Morpheus of the Endless (not e download program) said dreams bring to light our transience n frailty in a big world..but dat these temporary n passin images hav e power to create n destroy worlds as well..wat dreams hold u today frens?