a Time of Emotion for Piano

:Mood Todae(on Top)

haiz.. was a nice evenin at Johnnie's place earlier..great drinks n food...loveli herbal chicken dat tasted as though all e nutrients had been leached in2 e soup which subsequentli boiled off...a bit dry la...sorrie Johno..but mai hiam bei pai as they say...good mixin n frenship all roun...

i think i can safeli say dat dis blog space is not bein watched by...lets just call 'em e Dunedain Rangers (ala Lord of the Rings) who would see wat evil stirs in Mordor..e Pass is clear for e Dark Armies to move thru in preparation for e Assault on Ithilien in Osgiliath (pardon mi all u Non-LOTR fans)...

dats y 2nite i can safeli bare some parts of my heart dat would normalli be kept off dis blog even...everytime a guy likes a girl it feels like Mission Impossible..at least for mi...there are indeed girls i do like...i better not say one or two or watever...n there hav been many failures in e past..some wif e gals i now talk abt...some wif other gals now out of e picture...y ah? i figure i must b extremeli unattractive or obnoxious dats y like dat..

more importantli, i dunno how 2 proceed or whether its even a good idea..i dunno whether e time is rite or wat e will of e Almighty is..n i dunno wat (lets just say their) reaction will b..n i dunno if i'll b up 2 e task of bein there for (them) even if i succeed...its tuff to noe wat 2 do...i noe wat i like..i noe i would like 2 b wif (them)..i noe i would giv my best...but i dunno wat shd b done or how 2 go abt doin it...prob e onli person who noes wat i'm realli talkin bout will b my good sista Jinny...no one else has any clear picture of wat i'm talkin bout..

i wish dat i had courage, wisdom, strength, charm, charisma...but i dun hav much...i think bout this person(s) a lot...n its difficult to juz carry on as if i'm unaffected by it..its distractin...i wish it were not, but it IS....God help mi...i swore b4 dat i dun wanna fail no more..nor do i wanna b such a fool in love...but i seem 2 b again n again...

i would realli giv a lot juz to noe wat dis person(s) thinks of mi..n whether (they) think its possible for us...hav u ever ever been in such a conundrum b4?

even if i knew {wat this person(s) tot n wat i shd do}, it would still b back to e words of dat old Mentat Trainin Paradox: At Last, after our long journey, we hav finalli arrived at the Beginning....