Worn Out by Attrition

i'm a great fan of the middle-eastern conflicts n conflagrations involvin Israel...in 1982 when Yitzhak Rabin was faced with a crisis of tremendous proportions durin e Yom Kippur assault on Israel, he famousli told Radio Israel n e world,"we shall not break.." dis was a gifted general n born leader but no Moshe Dayan with characteristic debonair charm n elegance..he came out of dat crisis transformed n renewed..takin Israel into a new era of negotiations..

i'm facin my own Yom Kipur with a portfolio submission in under 7 hours n still plenty to go..i was close to breakin point dis mornin..until Rabin's words came to mind..we shall not break..if u're havin trouble today, dis is wat i'll say to u..we shall not break..

brothers in e army, dun break..in smu, nus, ntu..dun break..in newcastle, Focus frens n others..dun break..we may bend in e wind like e willow, but we dun give up n break..

dun get mi wrong, i am worn down n worn out by attrition..n i'm on e razor edge, but its my belief dat e Powers dat be will not let mi suffer catastrophic failure like cast iron when dropped..emotionally, physically, spiritualli n mentalli...killing giants is wat every1 is called upon 2 do at least once in his or her lifetime..Goliath must fall..because a bigger Boss (who doesn't like bein challenged on his turf) stands behind David..i'm ramblin..pray forgive..

i've been thinkin some othr things thru..i learnt e value of timin some time ago..some things r not in God's will..some are..time reveals which is which..i've learnt 2 let go n retain only deep care n concern for those who r dear 2 mi..happiness is alwaez wat i want for them..its been said e mark of maturity is thinkin of others b4 1self in any relationshp /frenship..like Noah, we need to release our hopes..e dove came back with dat olive branch but not e raven..onli by releasin can we noe wat e ravens n doves are..(dis is incidentalli e workin of a crazed n sleep-depraved mind)..i'll do dis for e good of all parties n 2 put dat smile on Der Boss' face..so remain 3,faith, hope n love..but e greatest of these is...love..n wat is love? its not self-centred, or conceited...blah blah blah..cheers