How i learnt Confidence

i sometimes hate these assignments...u finish dem n realise dat others alwaez do so much better...n u go away feelin down..but den...i realised thru 1 particularli bad assignment grade dis year dat if u dun reach the bottom n noe wat its realli like...u won't think of gettin better..at the bottom, there's no where to go but up...n dat galvanised mi...

dis reminds mi of one of Jono's grandfather stories...i remember Staff Vincent at AETC sayin to us when he was givin out extra duties to some fellow trainees dat the purpose of extra duty durin trainin is so dat when u become a full-fledged specialist u become numb to it n when a Master Warrant or Senior Warrant Officer like AE's Lao Chek makes u sign 7 for some stupid infraction, u can shout loud loud, Thank You Sir! Staff Vincent was one of those old-timers who was strict yet fun...Engineers got ISO for trainin system but in Armoured Engineers, onli got i A**h*le...wat Welfare for soldiers?! Welfare is tough training..so wartime got to lay minefields under fire not as scary as trainin kena k*n by Instructors...we loved him for it nevertheless..

n also Mr Ng in 46 SAR...who used to share cigarettes wif members of the 'OK' group of specialists which i was part of..kena extra or regimental duty on weekends by CSM? nevermind...join mi in the armskote..after finish we smoke together..n i'll never forget e phrase he shared wif mi dat helped mi decide to study overseas...Jonathan, it doesn't matter where u're from..wat race or language or religion or nationality..if u're a mother-f**ing c*nt or dick, u're a mother-f**ing c*nt or dick regardless..they're everywhere..his gung-ho, devil-may-care-but-i-sure-as f*ck-don't attitude broke many mental barriers n psychological chains for mi..

dats how i learnt confidence..e system alwaez is a mother-f**in c*nt wherever u go..whether in Singapore or Australia..but even as we trust God...we need to fight back ...C*** B**s are there onli to b f*cked as a very knowledgeable officer once said...so start doing ur job...