End Game

Blogging from a uni Pc does have its significant advantages over working from a boring monochrome Mac..well, well...i am at the strange portion of the year where i've finished my last assignment and am getting ready for my final presentation on Monday..which will end it all for this year.. and then i do have one exam on th 22nd of November..which would be for the Introduction to the Bible course under the Provisional Theological Certificate done by Moore College in Sydney...pretty rapid actually, from start to finish of the course..

working with Darius over the past few days was really cool..for once i got to work on a project with a fellow Architecture student rather than separately from them..cos Architecture is a fiercely individual, independent and competitive course which builds up one's hardness, leaness and intellectual defence..i've built some pretty tough muscle in the area of defending my work and counter-criticising my Crit tutors ..anyways, working with Darius reintroduced me to whole new genres of soft rock and pop music which i'd previously abandoned after high school...and some sappy love tunes like Taylor Swift's Teardrops on my Guitar..man..the incurable tragic romantic in me was stirred out of his deep slumber for those few days listening to Darius' music collection..and singing along while working at 3 am in the morning really helps train both the vocal chords and one's ability to handle stress...and of course, his trance music helped me carry on at the ungodly hour of 6 am every morning..even if i was working mechanically in wat i call Zombie Slave mode..even now the tunes play recalcitrantly in the deepest recesses of my mind..

and a last word which is more reflective (like in Reflective Design Theory)...i was talking to a friend recently about...lotsa stuff actualli..and one topic which came up was singleness and relationships. And my friend, being the ever kind and compassionate one who cares for all living creatures and would never harm an ant except for occasional red-back spiders which aren't classified as ants anyway..she promptly compares me to someone who once complained about the same issue and was rebuffed for being selfish and self-centred, and this was given as the probable cause for this person's long time singleness..at first i thought i was being called selfish and self-centred and it was pretty upsetting..den as i prayed and thought about it, i realised that there were lessons indeed to be learned..such as not being too hung up on singleness or marriage, that God is in control and has His plans and reasons for things and that He means us no harm even if it is painful or difficult (which again human beings never consider)..and that i often do care only for myself where relationships are concerned, rather than for others..of course, one might argue that human beings are selfish and so are our relationships, but i think that by God's Spirit, Christians should be different..so yes, i will admit that i often am selfish and self-centred, much as i try, by God's grace, to be God and other-people-centred..and that singleness is an opportunity to learn to care for others in Christian ways without false intentions or wrong motives..and this does prepare Christians in relating to their spouses within the context of marriage..because if we can care for pple and Christians not related to us as Christ intends, so much more will we care for those whom we love dearly.. i won't try to be over-analytical at this point, but i do want to be reflective as a Christian..and at his point, i will say that my friend has encouraged me in a helpful way..even if she probably wasn't thinking things through that widely or thoroughly then..

thus, it is with confidence that i will say to my fellow Christian brothers who deal with this issue on a daily basis that we should place our confidence in Christ and, to quote 2 authors i admire, " when forced to make a difficult decision, take the choice of honour"..and honour is not our own petty male ego-led honour, but Christ's honour..and what is honouring to Christ? Let Him be King and God, over our will, our desires, our ambitions, our wants, everything..