inertia and determination

am filled with a great deal of inertia now in gettin things done...be it my bible study on the book of James that i'm supposed to e-mail to Paul n Lake...or in gettin my research done on housing patterns in Singapore which i promised i would do as part of my so-called personal summer research..

the onli bright spots would b the weekli kids church ministry that Charis church is doin at the local Boon Keng area and of which i'm a teacher...for better or worse..so, actualli puttin in2 practice the skills i've learned at NTE in sharing the gospel with children and presenting God's Word in a fun and excitin manner has been very rewardin and challengin...the stuff we learn at NTE is really like swimmin in a pool...but real ministry is like swimmin in the open sea with all the inherent dangers...but i kinda like the thrill and excitement involved..

lets talk about some of the kids who have been comin to kids church...C, the 9 year old whose father walked out on the family when she was born(n she's never met him)...beautiful and sweet and smart...n W, the 11 year old gal whose mum walked out on their family 3 years ago..very interested but reserved...D n J, the sisters who live nearby and come to our kids church even though they actualli go to another church on Sundays, Pt, the kid whose birth parents sold to his aunt because of financial difficulties...in the gifted programme of his primary school (for students with genius level intelligence)...who said when we first did 2 Ways To Live that he wanted to choose to live with Jesus as his king rather than anyone else..n others like the half thai siblings P&P n the 2 gals we've been tryin to disciple who were saved a while back but whose father is a chinese temple medium(predestination at work)

i realli dun noe wat to teach the kids under my charge after we finish 2 ways to live...which is in 2 weeks...been prayin about it n I do feel that these children need to noe wat the True love of God the Father is realli like...so i believe thats the direction that we'll be goin..

n i dunno wat to do bout another issue: there are some pple in life u wish u'd met earlier...there are some pple whom one could say i'd b happy to just b wif this person for one day n heck about the rest...n when it seems that this person shares many things in common with u...or at least, lots of common discussion topics...n the most important is ur faith...one realli begins to think that mayb i'm gonna get thru life after all...its not all bleak n dark...but it just seems too good to be true n u're alwaez waitin for the other side of the story to come crashin in...thats the dark/bad side...

at the decisive point where one can really say, i don't know wat i'm doin or wat to do...except pray n ask God to be Lord of this situation...its also the most scary....